Monday, May 16, 2005

Being an intern for the past week or so has NOT been easy.
in fact,
that's actually an understatement.

I've been doing non-stop research,
typing out shit
and reading articles and cases harder than even when i was preping for the exams!

good lordie.
there're the good parts of course,
like the bonding i do with the girls over lunch,
and it's strange how working together and wallowing in misery while trembling in the cold office can pull people together.

I have to say that after this short stint,
i'm gonna stop pre-judging people (to my best ability)
and simply befriend them regardless of what narrow-minded perception my critical and horribly bitchy inner self throws out.

I'm not kidding when i say i'm the worst when it comes to people.
I can know a person for a while,
but maybe after some time,
I realised that the person is wearing the wrong type of shoes,
or carrying an awful bag,
or is too short,
or has icky hair...
and then the transition from a mere acquaintance to a friend never happens.

so what happens is i have a helluva lot of superficial acquaintances
because of my bigot ways.
it shouldn't BE like this!!!!!!!
I'm a bigger person than that!!!!!

Of course,
for the 1st few days,
i found myself thinking to myself whenever one of the superficial acquaintances
talks to me.
i'd think to myself...

"wahliew, make-up wear so thick for what. law office leh. not wayang!"

"stupid short guy, get outta my way."

"skinny anorexic girl. think u very chio issit?"

yeah... that's just an insight as to how HORRIBLE my mind works.
but guess what??
a few more days into the job,
I changed my perception for the better.
so i can now proudly proclaim that 5 acquaintances have made the transition.
let's hope I have tamed the bigot in me.

ah well...
today was a horrible day.
spent a good 6 hours in court,
whereby 2 and a half of which my bladder almost burst.
it was fun dining with the partner and his associates at the court's cafe...
and watching the other lawyers' snooty little ways.

I had a great breakfast today.
Tuna on toast, 2 fried scrambled eggs with watery insides. just the way i like it!
and a hot cup of milo.

dinner was the best,
with american fried rice,
clam chowder and salad.

brian's becoming a real chef, isn't he?
i'm glad.
i wouldn't know what i'd do without him.

9:58 PM